The beauty of a real friend
is the feeling you get
because you know you can do no wrong
you won’t be betrayed
you never get rejected
you never get your heart broken
you will always be loved.
when I was young
I don’t think I had a large capacity to love
like the many starry eyed
youth.
at least,
anything in a real deep way
even though I thought I did
when you are young
you think you know the answers to
things you really don’t.
that love I was looking for
wasn’t the real love
I didn’t know I needed
I was too busy chasing women
lost in a world of illusion
getting my heart torn out
used and stepped on
poor younger broken hearted me
I, like so many who are young
didn’t realize I was in love with love
I was chasing
a feeling
How Romantic that was though
So many Poems have been written about this one
subject
books and books
pages and pages
movies
tweets
Yes, that feeling is Romantic
Lustful
Dreamy
Hot
Passionate
yet, on the dark side of the same coin
can be
Jealous
Insecure
Self Centered
Selfish
Unfaithful
Deceitful
and not last forever like we may have hoped for…
Oh, let me count the failed marriages
starting with three of my own
so many broken hearted lost souls…
as with anything in life
that’s worthwhile
you have to go through it
and come out the other side
when you are ready…
otherwise, you just stay stuck
in a rut of whatever the ‘it’ is
you are refusing to deal with.
I was in love with a feeling
I thought was
LOVE
but now, in my twilight years
those fires have waned
and I am not tormented by it anymore
and, in a way
I am grateful it has departed
into the ether
and now
I am left with…
that I finally do love
because, I know what love is
and, what it isn’t.
I have earned my stripes
and qualify myself to say
to the world…
Love is not a certain feeling
trapped within one definition
it resides on a spectrum
in that love does
and
love behaves well
love is there
until the end
and beyond
most everything in my life
is not centered around
ME
and how I
FEEL
because that’s not how I want it to be
anymore
It’s not so much that I care less about my welfare
I do
It’s not
about making sure I
GET.
It’s that I
GIVE
of myself more than I ever have
simply because that’s the me I’ve evolved into
and, it’s funny
how
I get more in return
without caring if I even do
I don’t keep tabs
on what I get and give
like I used to
long ago
you may realize
you’d like to change your ways
when you are good and ready
